It's been ages since I last blogged.
And the main reason is that I'm never home.
My AFP shoot was over.
And now my MOS shoot will be this weekend.
One more week before 3 weeks of breaks.
After the break,
2 more filmings within 6 to 7 weeks.
And I'm done with this semester.
In fact, I'm done with School.
Can't wait.

Don't feel like writing much.
Cos I'm super sick.
It's been 5 days.
Damn it.
Fever, Cough, Flu, Sorethroat.
=/

So I shall update soon.
But before that. A few more things.

1) Go watch "Enchanted".
It's been a long time since Walt Disney come out with a great film.
Pirates not included.
"Enchanted" is what was used to be Walt Disney classics.
And Amy Adams are simply stunning.

2) My second sister recently just got engaged.
But I wasn't there for the ceremony.
Felt kinda bad. B
ut I won't miss her wedding for anything in the world.
Which is pretty soon. June 2008. =)

I think that's about it for now.
Shall update soon.
=)

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Can you hear it?

Escape.
Hide.
Disappear.
Pretend.
It still aches.
How could it go on without pretending.
How could it go on without being a fake.
It still hurts.
Pretend.
Disappear.
Hide.
Escape.
I've reached my limit.
It's all a cycle.
I'm a coward.
But most importantly,
Smile.
Just smile.
=)
I can't even treasure the most precious person in my life right now.

Met up with the guys.
Although they're all still mostly what they were back then.
But damn.... they just kept going on about their NS life.
Lol. Well, some stories are actually really funny.
Yet, they just make themselves sound like they're 45.
And I'm suppose to be the older one.
People always say NS will make you a man.
Maybe. But an old soul sounds more like it.
Unless of course you stay out of NS life once you're out.
But it's tough, isn't it.
And I know so many who would kill to be in my position.
But too bad guys.
Enjoy your NS for as long as it requires you to be.
We shall come back into the real world once you're out.
Maybe then we have something more in common to talk about.
A great laugh though. =)

School been keeping me busy, busy, busy.
But right now, I kinda appreciate this lack of free time.
Although, home has been like my peaceful sanctuary for the past 2 weeks.
It won't be long before I break free again I suppose.
So for those of you out there, you know what to do.
D------A------------R-----------I--------U---------S!

Been quite disappointed with the progress.
All I could do is to just go for it.
And do my best.
So that's what I'm gonna do.
Nothing would stop me from going forward.
Not when I'm at a state that I am in right now.

It's been almost one and a half year,
but I can finally tell Ish confidently that:
I'm living a life that I want and not what I think others want me to.
So with that, I'm satisfied.

Thanks Dad.

Everyone has their own love story.
A story that digs deep in their heart.
That would have 'scarred' them forever.
Simply because...
These stories are the one that are always flawed.
They are the one that end with tragedy.
They are the one that instil the greatest amount of emotion.
They are the one that bleed, that hurt, that cry.

I don't remember the first time I met you.
I don't even remember the first time I talked to you.
But what I remembered was worthwhile.
Never would I have thought I would feel what I felt.
Never would I have thought I would meet whom I met.
Never would I have thought I would change.
The memories linger.
The moments stay.
And the heart experiences.
The very same heart that has been hardened over the years.
As flawed as one can be,
the heart opens and imprinted someone special.
To be branded.
To be remembered for life.
But it all comes a little too late.
Regrets. Disappointment.
But those are negative.
And I have enough negative in my life.
It's time to throw it away.
It's time to put the character.
The personality. The reputation.
The template. The ego.
It's time for all of those to be left aside.
It's time to let everyone realize.
That I can love.
That love has never really abandoned me at all.
You made me realize it.
To realize love (just a word to many).
To realize my heart could be pounded just like everyone else's.

So my story came, finally.
After all these years of escalating.
It came with such oddity.
Yet who says love stories always need to have a happy ending?
With so much flaws. With so much uncertainty.
You are/were/will be my greatest love story.
The story that will never happen if it comes a little earlier.
So a choice between the greatest love story and the relationship.
I'm glad mine came.
Althoug it brought so much pain.
So much tears.
So much scars.
The experience of knowing that my heart could actually love somebody.
Would be the greatest thing you've ever did to me.

I'm ready to face the world with love.
I'm ready to spend my entire life with love.
Moving on is a part and parcel of life.
A life that I've decided to be a part of.
The three letter words seem redundant.
Because my heart says, it's beyond...
It's beyond...
Beyond....
......