Tell me.
How can these two not be my greatest inspirations?
They are both so amazing.
What a performance.
Watched it over and over again.
Beautiful dance.
Beautiful song.
Simple beautiful.
How can anyone not want to dance?

So much happened, so little time to process.
So much to say, so little time to express.
So much supression, so little time of letting go.
So much internal thoughts, so little time to share.
Who in their right mind will lie to a family member?
Who in their right mind will tell off a sister?
Who in their right mind will denounce being siblings?
I may not mean what I said entirely.
But what I said was half of what I meant.
It hurts even up to now, to see what I typed.
And what you typed.
I just need my time to prove of what I'm capable of.
You just need my these time to realize what I'm going for.
Nobody in their right mind will gain happiness over another's agony.
Only an extremely sick/unsound/evil person might.
Let alone your own family members.
It's ridiculous to even have such a thought.
Saying it, makes it worse by ten fold.
I can ignore it. I can even try to forget.
Yet......

Don't think. Don't think. Don't think.
I try not to let it bother me.
I try so damn fucking hard.
But I can't.
So I'll just leave it as it is.
If this is what it's meant to be, then it is what it should be.
Regret is a part of me.
So I can carry it off my shoulder.
And lift it for the rest of my life.
The look of your face.
The nonchalant expression.
Is eating into every part of me.
That any pain inflicted in me means nothing to me.
At all.
But all these are merely words, isn't it?

But it's the festive season.
Focus on the positive.
I have to to keep my sanity.
Christmas is over, but the mood's still around.
A new year is approaching.
For someone who lives by regret, this is the time to 'move on'.
Or 'pile on'.
Another year. Another me. Another story.
Hope......

I'm supposed to do my Beat Sheet Assignment for StudioPro.
But I am not.
Well. Trying to. Not making much effort though.
Grrrr....
But i was super excited.
Cos Britney's new full length vid "Piece of Me" is finall out.
And SHE'S BACK BITCHES! Finally!
Even a fan, I can't deny that "Gimme More" vid was crap.
I'm glad this is a much better vid.
Nowhere as fantastic as her previous vids.
But amidst all the drama in her life.
This is the best thing that has come out of her in a LONG time.
Besides "Blackout" which is a wait worthy album.
So super YAY!
I can't find anywhere that I can embed the vid onto my blog.
When I find it, I will.
In the mean time, don't be lazy.
but click on the link.
Piece of Me Video
=)

It's funny how things turn out well when it's least expected.
I'm glad. I'm grateful.
Although I'm surprised. I'm shocked.
How could I have such an impact when there's virtually nothing there for me or you to grab onto.
It's weird.
Maybe I should finally admit that I'm 22 and I'm old.
Maybe I'm moving on to being the previous generation.
Let it all go.
There's nothing that I could offer that could satisfy you.

Going to be extremely busy.
With performances around the corner.
Funka coming up.
The Last phase of my last semester.
With the countless of crazy projects going on.
I'm gonna go at it full on.
And leave nothing behind.
After all, I have been ready to move on since the start of this sem.

Maybe. Just maybe.
This is what has been planned out for me all along.
If it is, I'm glad it found me.
Or rather I found it.
=)

Firstly.
Congrats Rough Addicts!!!!!
Bec, JJ, Yen, Ling, Xian, Joyce, Minz.
You guys are awesome.
4th placing and that much deserved best costume since Suntec.
LOL.... Ling must be sooo happy. =P
On the side note, YUXIN!!!!!!!!!!
You're dope!!!
Omg! I'm envious. Lol. =)
Way to go all of you.

Secondly to Daphne.
Congratulations on your album launch.
Finally, a solo record.

We're all proud of you.
You're the first friend I know who has an album in the market. LOL.
I'm super duper happy. =)
And Don't think of other stuffs.
Just focus on what's in front of you.
I'm sure you'll achieve everything that you want to achieve.
Once again, congrats!

Finally.
a few more days to break.
So Yay.
Although there won't be much of a break.
With AFP2 casting, location scouting, preprodution paperwork.
And Funka trainings and NRA performances.
Busy Busy Busy Busy.
=)

Life is like a rollercoaster.
It goes up and down.
And it may never end.
A person can be completely happy and still have the hardest troubles.
A person can be completely upset and yet there are absolutely nothing wrong.
When it comes down to it.
We are only human, we all make mistakes,
We all experience the same kind of things.
In life we will always be given choices, chances, many opportunities.
All of these being good and bad.
Nothing's Guaranteed, nothing's for sure.
Except that one day we will die.
When a person can learn to enjoy the bad and accept the hardships life hands them.
Then a person can find true happiness and know what life is all about.
When a person can feel completely dead.
Then turn it around to feeling completely alive.
Nothing can get in your way.
Perhaps it takes someone losing something to figure it all out.
But you have to keep going.
Or you're letting evil take over who you are and what you could be.

Because this rollercoaster of life may never end.
Take each day as if it was your last opportunity.
The last opportunity to do everything you want and need to do.
Enjoy every moment for what it is and nothing less.
It's when we lose sight of what life is truly about.
That we start losing sight of what we really are.
What are we meant to be alive for.

We all need the bad times or there'd be no good times.
A person wouldn't enjoy them if they didnt know what sorrow felt like.

I love you. We all do.
So don't give up.
There's no place left in my heart.
To accomodate the pain that will be inflicted on me with your departure.
Maybe I'm meant to be left in solitary.