Back from Medan a few days ago.
Was a fulfilling trip.
Finally got to see my mum and my sis after more than a year.
Got to meet up with my primary school friend from Medan whom I have not seen for 11 years.
Thanks for the photos, dude.
The Memories. =)

My Birthday was a few days ago.
Thanks for all the smses, messages, the wishes, celebration, etc.
Nothing huge.
Just simple, nice and fun.
The Memories. =)

Sometimes it takes a lot for someone to realize their life.
And I guess I'm such a person.
I've come to appreciate life more than what I used to for the past few years.
It's amazing how much emotion you could get just from seeing a long lost friend.
Just from hearing the critical news of your loved ones.
From words of support and encouragement.
From the appreciation others provide.
From little things that I would have never thought could provoke such a deep impression on me, my thoughts, my life.

I miss everyone.
I miss everyone who have been a part of my life.
I miss my mum, dad, sis.
I miss my granddad, grandma, cousins.
I miss my aunts, foster parents.
I miss my primary school friends in Medan.
I miss my primary school friends in Singapore.
I miss Monk's Hill Secondary School.
I miss all of my friends there.
I miss canoeing.
I miss SOME of the teachers.
I miss SOME of my Poly friends.
I miss NRA.
But instead of dwelling on it like I would in the past.
Now, I know that something could be done to amend that.
And that has to come from my own effort.
With that, it makes me realize how much in control I am in my own life.
And it makes me feel pretty good about life.

Maybe.
Just maybe.
I'm more of a provider.
Which I'm completely fine with.
I just need the revelations.

It's been a long time since I last blogged.
Have been super duper ultimate busy for the past dunno how many weeks.
But The Big Groove is over.
So I guess I could take a little breather for now.
Although I'm sure there are tons of other things that will come along the way.

The Big Groove 2008 was awesome.
I enjoyed every moment that I had on stage.
Although I screwed up big time during stage run, during full dress.
It's amazing to see so many talented dancers sharing the same stage.
I'm honored and extremely delighted to be a part of something so grand for dancers.
I was a little less stressed about OCrew performance.
Since we had way more time than we did last year.
Special shout out to Gin who improvised so quickly during a mishap.
My hats off to her.
And thanks for everything. And of course everyone else too.

To SMU.
I'm extremely proud of every single one of you.
You guys tried and did your best.
That is what's most important.
It's the breakthrough.
And from now onwards, it's time to go way beyond what you think you have.
I'm looking forward to the concert.
=)

And now NRA.
I'm extremely happy to still be able to do this event at that same stage with you guys again this year.
I'm happy to be included.
No matter what it is, we tried our best.
And I really do felt the energy, the support, the constant care that you guys show towards me and each other.
Words could not convey the gratitude I have towards all of you.
Especially Terence who took the effort to come down to O School just to teach me all the steps.
Thank you for the hardwork, the choreography, the dedication and everything else that you did.
You're an extremely talented, gifted dancer and the most amazing friend I have. =)
To the rest, thank you for everything as well.
Thank you for being so understanding.
Thank you for all the encouraging smses.
Thank you for the support.
To Ann.
You are, have always been and will always be the best mentor I have in my life.
I love ya.
Thank you for always putting sense in me.
Thank you for being way more than just an instructor to me.
=)

So to end it all.
I'm extremely blessed with the things that I have.
The opportunities that were given to me.
I'm happy to be able to be where I'm at.
But all of us need to look up.
We need to look way beyond our own expectation.
Our own vision.
Even with so much support, assurances.
The doubt will always be there.
And I'm trying to find a reason not to.
And the answer to that is as simple as moving forward, be open, learn as much as you can, improve and offer everything that you have.
What makes it so fun?
Because I love to dance.