Enough on all the emo posts.
I don't realize it until I go back and read them again.
And I realize it can get pretty depressing sometimes.

Anyway. Tucker Barkley.
He's like this super talented, genius of a dancer.
He's been hailed as a prodigy by many of the renowned choreographers in the States.
And I can see why.
He's ONLY 18, yet he's AHMAAAAZZZINNNGGGGG!!!!!!
There are lots of amazing dancers in the States.
But I kinda looking up to him for now.
One day, I got to take his class.
But not anytime soon I think.
Cos I'll either be extremely disappointed with myself and give up.
Or fight on to improve.
Which is pretty risky at this point in time.
So very soon.
Hoping one day, I have the necessary skills and techniques to handle his dance.
Fight on...........

Here are 2 of his clips.
There are lots more on youtube, just type his name.




Tell me if you know anyone's choreo is faster than these.
And you guys think mine's fast.. Lol.. Think again! =)

"They come and talk to me,
when i am all alone.
They always remind me of all the things that I've done wrong.
It's scary, disturbing,
but somehow I'm not sorry.
The only thing that's even real is the feelings that I don't feel.
They're all the same,
but they're so different.
They're leaving evidence of my darkest secrets.
Now i just can't pretend to forget these voices in my head,
and they just won't stop screaming..."

Sometimes we believe there's always a better place that we could be.
We all believe in leading a life we all wanted.
Believing that we deserve a life that's worthy of remembrance.
What do we want out of everything?
After achieving what we think we wanted, then what's next?
Will there ever be a time when we all would stop?
Stop thinking. Stop making decisions.
Stop worrying. Stop all activities.
Is death the only ending to one's life?
Will there be a continuation of one's life after death?
Is life and death as simple as it seems to be?
Just a cycle of life?
But is it really?

Death, but a departure.
A leaving from the mortal world to the spirit world.
A disconnection from the world of the living to the afterlife.
A way to leave the Earth and to move on to the heavens.

Either way you look at it.
Does it really deserve such the depressions?
Does it really have to cause such suffering to those who can't let go of their lost ones?

You cannot bring the spirits back into the same life that it left.
So just leave it be, it was meant to happen for a reason.
The departure is supposed to be the best experiance.
So don't ruin it for your loved ones by keeping them back from it.
They want you to be happy.
They want you to forget about their deaths.
Treat them as everyone else.
After all, are they not still people?
Do they not deserve to be spoken of as all of us living?
Let them go.
Let them fulfill their destinies.
Let them see you happy.
Release.

It is as easy as it sounds.
Just keep repeating it.
Over and over again.

I wanna scratch and scar my face,
I wanna feel like I'm lost in space,
I wanna pull my hair out,
I wanna feel like no one's there,
I wanna dig out my eyes and watch them bleed,
For just one moment I wish I could want what I need,
I wanna scar my skin so bare,
I wanna know if you still care,
I wanna stop falling in love,
I wanna fit into you like a glove,
I wanna be sad and I wanna cry,
I wanna for one second wonder why,
I wanna wear my eyeliner dark and my lips pale,
For one day I don't wanna fail,
I wanna end my life and end it fast,
So for just one minute i wanna forget my past,
I wanna feel passion and I wanna feel lust,
I wanna feel my heart slowly bust,
I wanna tell you one last thing,
As I hear the angels of my past sing,
Goodbye to you, the one I used to know,
For I know it's time for me to go...




... to a better place.

Haven't been using any skins for quite some time.
Partly because I couldn't find what I liked.
So finally... =)
And for those whom I've not linked, please tag your url again.
I lost some of the links while changing the skin.
Sorry.

Lately, I haven't been thinking a lot about stuffs.
And it sort of helps in a way.
By slowing down the rate my mind is processing,
I can finally see what is really important to me.
I guess that also comes with age.
So yes, for the first time, I'll admit I've come of age.
Although it maybe too late to many.
I'm glad for the way my life has changed simply due to the fact that I take better care of myself.
In the way I see myself.
In the way I see others.
In the way I see life.
In the way I see what others don't.
Realizing that you are not of the utmost importance is the key to everything.
That there are bigger things out there.
That you're just a small part of everything.
And that everything doesn't revolve around you.

I've gone through phases of being a blank white paper.
I've gone through phases of being drawn and disfigured.
I've gone through phases of wear and tear.
I just want to go through that phase of being a blank white paper once again.
Just to be drawn with multiple colour crayons.
To inject the colorful life that I so very deserved right from the start.
Will that make things brighter?
Will I be happier?
It doesn't matter.
What matters is I'm coloured.
Not a black and white piece of crumpled trash floating around.

c o l o u r i n g . . . . . .

Call me obsessed.
Call me fanatic.
But this is ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!
To see what people can do with their body through dancing.
I'm in such an awe.
Like the judges, I have to start believing in the impossible.
WOW. Just WOW.


^ This totally beats the routine Tyce Diorio did for Ivan and Allison to "Why". I love that routine so much even up to now. I have been watching it on a regular basis. But this routine, MADNESS!!!!!


^Just like how I fell in love with Mandy Moore, esp with her table routine with Sabra and Neil last year, plus the 80s Jazz routine she did for Sara and Pasha. I totally love Sonya this year. She's weird, quirky, awesome!!!!!


^WOW! Katee and Joshua are definitely the stars of the season.

Seeing what Joshua can do with all the routines he's done.
He's absolute madness.
He's a popper!!!!!
Yet....
WOW. JUST WOW.
The talent! The committment!
The attitude! The strength!
Hopefully, one day....
Thanks Chien Yen. Lol

Call me obsessed.
Call me a fanboy.
They are crazy madness.
And I respect how amazingly talented these people are.
=)